Death Cab for Cutie / What Sarah Said
Day 10 - A song by your favourite band.
You guys have NO idea how difficult this was to choose.
I’ve literally been sitting here for almost an hour going through my itunes and writing down songs and narrowing down my favourite bands and listening to possibilities and blah blah blah.
At first I thought of choosing a song by Mumford or Freelance Whales but I decided not to because as much as I love both of those bands, they’re both rather new favourites of mine that I’ve only discovered within the past year and I’ve already posted a lot of their songs on my blog prior to this challenge.
And then I thought about just going REALLY old school and choosing a Taking Back Sunday song but I decided not to do that either because their old music and the memories attached to them are really the only things that keep them a favourite in my mind.
I can’t really stand their latest two albums at all.
But Death Cab has been a favourite band of mine since the beginning of time and I still listen to them religiously.
So really, it was unanimous that I choose a song by them and after I had settled on them being the band choice, I knew instantly that it would be this song that I chose to write about.
So let me stop this obnoxiously and long and pointless introduction to why I’m choosing this song and get on with the actual description.
Okay.
This song.
Where do I even start.
I chose this song for a many reasons, but the two main ones being:
One, it’s my favourite song by them. The opening piano piece is so gorgeous, as well as the entire song, Ben’s voice is perfect, and it all flows together so beautifully that my heart can hardly stand it.
I became so obsessed with it that I even taught myself how to play it on the piano.
And Two, the lyrics.
The story behind this song is depressing as hell.
But he takes the little things like the waiting room and magazines and describes each detail so eloquently and brings it all together perfectly that you end up loving it anyways.
One of my favourite lyrics/quote of all time comes from this song:
“Love is watching someone die.”
I was listening to this in my car as I was driving home at night (which I so often am because I think that car rides by yourself with nothing but music are one of the most important things in life to do) with the music blaring and these lyrics resonated through me.
And they killed me.
I replayed this part three times and just sat there clutching the steering wheel and my heart felt like it was on fire and I was smiling.
It’s crazy how four small words paired with such a beautiful melody could be so powerful and move in me so much that all I can muster is this jumble of paragraphs that probably don’t even make much sense in the end.
Basically, I am just way too attached to music.
this song will always hold an incredibly tender and sad spot in my heart. i literally watched my aunt annie take her last breath. my dad and i were there at 3 am in the hospital room and saw that woman leave the world. we both refused to leave her until it happened.
and then in this past cumulative year i watched my grandma julie go from healthy to having cancer eat her alive in a matter of months. again, me, my mom, my best friend, and my aunt lisa, were all in her bedroom, the room i remember since i was six years old, as that woman took her last breath. and the months before for the hospital visits, and the desicion to go home one last time. its like i feel like its my duty. someone needs to witness it. that last moment of life. and its gut wrenching and theres nothing i can even do to describe it. but i can say, it is absolutely pure love.
thank you, melanie.
i havent been able to listen to this for months. until today.
